I hate her so much....
i hate myself...
I hate myself because i hate you...
Why do i ever loved you like this
even if i try to forget you, you are still remains in here.
even your cellphone number i still remember.
I hate this feelings when you know that it is impossible to be with you, i keep myself wishing to that you will also feel the same as i do
I want to stop these craziness but i think it is impossible.
ugggghhhhh....what will i do to stop thinking of you...
Even if i try to love someone (my 2nd year crush) i cannot get rid over you...
Even if i want to erase your number in my phone book i still remember your number.
Even if i don't want to text you but i cannot stop myself texting you "HELLO"
Even if you don't replay some of my text i keep texting you
Why are you like that??? i used different number because i want to test if you will replay to the text then my guts is right... you reply to the text and my text that i sent to you, you don't even replay just a single hello....i know that it is unreasonable but by the fact that you are avoiding me,,,brought me heartbreak...
I try to be busy but in times i'm all alone I'm thinking of you...
In night when i close my eyes i am imagining that we are laughing, telling jokes, holding each other hands and teasing... i want to leave in my dreams because i know i will be happy there and i know that we can be together there..but i keep waking up and facing the reality which is not my destiny.
Yah, i said to you that the rigil before will not be right back anymore but it is just all lies because the rigil will still remain and still pretending to be ok.
I want to say sorry to you because i cause you pain, i let you cry and i let you think of me even a little bit of time.
i want to clarify what you said to me when i said that the rigil before will be gone...that you see the real me who is sweet and capable of loving. yah you let me show it you but in the end i start to be pretentious to you...
I don't know what's gonna happen to me next year. i don't know what will i do next year. i want to stop my life now and have another life which is perfect in all aspects especially the physical aspect...
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
hoyy rigil! REPLY <-- ganyan po spelling. :)
ReplyDeletekabalo ka, hating or getting angry is really a person's coping mechanism. coping with the pain, para maka.get.over. although it's not good to feel hatred. pero who can blame you? people dont have the right to judge you on how you move on because they dont know how much you are hurting!